I am writing this from pure emotion at this present time . Sometimes you need to get things off your chest and sometimes Speaking allowed , you think - is it worth the argument? Probably not but it’s not fair if you have to hold in all these emotions - so...
Family to me is very important and the girls and Mezz are my absolute world. It is my
Job to make sure them girls are happy and feel loved and to never feel alone whilst I am here - it’s human nature isn’t it?
Well that’s how I see it and it’s horrible that people are felt to feel unloved and not wanted and I am going to be brutally honest because I need to get it all out - I do not feel loved by family and it sucks. It has got worse over the years and sometimes , no matter how hard you try / it’s not always upto you to make the effort.
You can’t force someone to be part of your life and as upsetting as that is and feels , it’s life . Life is sometimes shit and you just have to accept that , it’s not easy to accept but when is the cut off point to keep trying and feeling let down?.
It goes the same with friends too- friends that only want you when you’ve got something or make plans and constantly let you down. Or the friends that declare your the ultimate best friends yet they read your texts and ignore you for weeks and even months.
The friends that ignore you and then go on holiday to the place you were both going to go to meet up . Them type of friends that are full of lies and want you when they are bored and have nothing better to do.To use you like you are nothing.
Ditch them! Tell them to get lost! Do not put up with it , I have and it’s made me bloody miserable. It’s made me feel low and made me felt worthless and it’s not worth it to have them people in your life / you are definitely better off without them!
From now on I will concentrate on my girls and Mezz and the people around us that make the effort and want to be involved in our life’s.
Rant over :)
